Why is it that I feel so much guilt over leaving the babies for a few days with Jeff when I clearly need a break? The guilt has got me good. My two best girlfriends and I are planning a trip in August and while I am excited beyond belief I feel so bad about leaving Jeff with the two crazies for 3 days. Why do I think nobody can care for them except for me? It’s certainly not an ego thing…more like I don’t want Jeff to have to deal with just how insane they can be. I deal with the insanity everyday, but am hesitant for someone else to deal with it. Insanity for mama is what that is! I will miss them crazily and be so happy to come home to them….but HOLY SHIT! I’m going on vacation!!!!!!
We haven’t all been together since October of 2004 when this picture was taken. Stacey had just had Ayla, her second baby and Julie was visiting Vegas with her two boys. I’m so excited for us all to get together again.
I’m also SUPERDUPERUPER excited to go white water rafting down the White Salmon River in Oregon. We get to jump off a cliff, ride the waves, and hopefully make it out unharmed. I’ve never been rafting so I’m nervous, but so excited. We’re going hiking and mountain biking, eating yummy food, drinking yummy mojitos, and having a slumber party. Could it get any more fun?!?!?! When I think of only feeding myself for a few days, no diaper changes, no crying babies, no 5:30am wakeups, I feel a little less guilty and a little more giddy.
P.S.
A big huge sloppy wet kiss and thank you to my wonderful husband for encouraging me to go and taking his own life in his hands when volunteering to keep the crazies for three straight days. He probably won’t make that mistake again. =)
July 27th, 2007 at 8:02 am
It’s good for you to get away on your own, besides you will have a blast and feel much more relaxed when you get back. Good for you!!! I hope you have a blast.
July 27th, 2007 at 8:18 am
You need to go and have a good time. Jeff can handle it.
July 27th, 2007 at 10:56 am
I just got back from my (gulp!) 20th high school reunion and I left the twins with my hubby for three days too. Here’s my suggestion: make a promise to yourself to do your best to not obsess about the babies while you’re gone. It’s a short break and you don’t get many of those, so don’t waste it pining away for your bambinos.
Having a break was lovely, but what sucked for me was trying to get back into the routine. You don’t realize how monotonous it is until you’ve stepped away a bit.
Have a great trip!
July 27th, 2007 at 1:56 pm
Have fun! You deserve it!!!
July 27th, 2007 at 4:32 pm
Good for you! Bonds like that are meant to be cherished,
even if you have to let go of your babies for a while.
They’ll be fine, he’ll be fine, you’ll be WONDERFUL!
Now I’m thinking I need a vacay. Sheesh. Maybe that’s
my problem.
July 27th, 2007 at 5:44 pm
Yay for you! So glad (and envious) you’re getting away.
Have a wonderful time, and don’t worry too much about those
babies for a couple of days.
July 29th, 2007 at 8:19 am
Oh, my g-d do I relate to this post!! You are so not alone.
I about drove everyone over the edge with my “managing” an
hour from home. (I was working 50 some miles from home). I
would call the house like, oh, maybe 20 times a day after I
went back to work. Which was only one week after returning from
China! Dh watched the kids on the weekends as I work. He finally
told me to stop calling that it was not his first day on the job.
LoL. I drove everyone total bat-shit. I too went out of town
for 3 days but it was for work. Again, I called 100 times. Asking
stupid questions (did you change their diapers, did you put
clean clothes on them, etc, etc.) but getting a little more
creative on how I asked them. Afterall, we don’t want our
peeops to think we think they are total incabable of handling
the little monkeys alone!
Go and have a good time. I think you will be surprised, but
dh will do ok….and yes, the babies will miss you…..
Hugs.
July 29th, 2007 at 2:49 pm
You are going to have so much fun…=)
July 29th, 2007 at 4:48 pm
I felt like I was reading my own post. Ours our 4 months and I finally went out and let Brett put them to bed on his own the other night. It was so hard for me! I just kept thinking about what the dr. said when she told me I needed to get out more. I told her how afraid I was… She said, “What is the worst that could happen? They cry?” Everything was fine… Everything will be fine for you. Good luck and have a good time!
July 29th, 2007 at 7:13 pm
Give your husband “A big huge sloppy wet kiss” from me too!
And have fun! How freakin’ exciting!