Lately I have been a mean monster mother. We’ll call it MMM for short. The yelling, frustrated, pulling my hair out, crying, angry mother that I really, REALLY don’t want to be. I LOVE staying at home with the babies and I wouldn’t trade this for anything in the world. BUT, I need a little more balance and I need a little more “me” time. Being a Mom takes up 24 hours a day 7 days a week of me. It is hard to find balance and time to be a good Mom, wife, and still have time for myself. I am sure every single Mom, stay at home or working has trouble finding a good balance. I am hopeful that I am finally on my way there. At two years three and a half months I am finally going to get a break and be able to have a little “memememe” time. Whooopee!! Yippee!! Skippee!! And here you’re probably thinking….Ummmm, aren’t you the same girl who gets FOUR DAYS of me time this weekend?!?!? And to that I answer yes indeed I am going on vacation for four, wonderful, glorious days this weekend. While my vacation is going to be wonderful, fun, relaxing, and a much needed break reality will hit the minute I get back and once again I will fall by the wayside to the demands of the crazies.
What?!?! You’re leaving us????
After much anxiety we have finally hired a mother’s helper/babysitter. Jeff and I were very hesitant to hire just anyone and we both felt uncomfortable leaving the babies with a stranger. We were also hesitant over leaving the babies with a teenager. Enter “A”. She is a very close friend of our family and I am SO excited to have her help. To start she will be here one to two mornings a week for a couple of hours. Oh my, what ever will I do with free time?!?! The options are endless. Stroll around a bookstore without speed reading titles all the while trying to keep the babies from pulling books from the shelves. Head to the coffee store or library with my laptop and work or catch up on all of your blogs. Finally go to the doctor (the one I haven’t been to since the babies were born). Grab my camera and Macro lens and go explore the little world. My oh my. I’m getting giddy just thinking about it.
Wahhhhhh, don’t leave us!!
And to make the situation even better she will babysit for Jeff and I to have monthly date night. WHOOOHOOO! Date nights are far and few between around here so this will be a much welcome treat.
I do feel anxiety over leaving the babies and how they will react, but like everything else they will probably surprise me with how well they do and once again I will have worried over nothing.
January 27th, 2009 at 7:02 am
Yay for me time! I have to say, it wasn’t until the twos where I really felt like I was turning into a mom I don’t want to be. The constant twoness is very difficult. Can’t wait to hear what you decide to do with the time!
January 27th, 2009 at 8:14 am
ENJOY IT! I am forced to have a regular sitter with jason’s schedule, 5-7 days in a row with the babies on my own requires some reprieve!
I’m actually really glad we did it too, I think it really helps everyone and with someone “regular” they will soon wave “bye bye” happily as you go to mommy land:)
January 27th, 2009 at 8:34 am
They’ll get over it pretty quick I’m sure… it’s important you have you time so you can be better when it’s their turn. If they fuss when you first start the routine, let them fuss. In the long run you will be happy you made this change.
January 27th, 2009 at 12:19 pm
Good for you! Once they realize that the babysitter = funx10, then they will be excited for those days as well. Have fun on your vacation too
January 27th, 2009 at 4:44 pm
I’m so jealous! Good for you! It will be great for all of you!
January 27th, 2009 at 5:59 pm
It’s absolutely a necessity to have time away from your kids - it allows you to be a better momma! Don’t feel guilty about it. One thing I’ve noticed is that sometimes the kiddos act differently (ie. more crazy) when I’m around. WTF? So, apparently, they need time away from me as much as I need time away from them.
January 27th, 2009 at 9:13 pm
OMG I am so happy that you are finally getting a bit of help. I’m sure the
kiddos will do great and you will be a saner mother for it.
And if it makes you feel any better, I definitely have “mom I didn’t want to be”
moments these days.
January 28th, 2009 at 3:03 pm
good good good for you! i have my parents with us and we get along well so it is great. i can go work whn i need to or just have some me time and as a consequence, i seem to want to get away less.
looking forward to seeing what you find out there with your macro.